最后一次和她说话的内容：“去看医生啦！”短短几行字的一句话，却能使自己感动无比。为何？你问。真实，至少在我的世界里已难以寻到。相信在很多人的世界里也同样难以找到。生活在这残酷无情的社会里，人们都往往比不得以地戴上一个又一个假面具。就如俗语说：“人在江湖，身不由己。”就因为这样，真实的友情再也“不存在”了。不存在吗？还是自己戴上无数的假面具，戴到连自己都分不清楚是非黑白，真真假假？
在我的世界里，尤其是在这几年里，我找到了真实无比的友情。实在是无价之宝啊！虽然只是简单的五个字，听起来的那几个字，反而让自己回想许多假不了的时刻。真实，到底是什么？在我们面前说着我们想听的话，却不实话实说吗？不！真实，是明明知道自己对对方说的话有可能伤到他们，但还是不留任何余地的说，即使是他们不想听的话。良药苦口嘛，不是吗？好话总不是最中听的。帮到对方，才是有用的话。
世上为何会有那么多戴着假面具的人？那是因为，真实地对待，总会招来许多人的厌烦，使很多人不喜欢自己。也是因为这个事实，稀少的真诚对待，则是最宝贵的财富。所以，我们都该睁大眼睛，看看周围的人，用心去感应他们的心意，分辨出坦诚相对与虚情假意的人，然后好好珍惜那些真心对自己的人。因为，今日不知明日事，真正找到对自己坦诚相对的人在这一生中也不会有很多。关心自己的人，才会费力气着急，甚至生气。因为彼此之间的爱护则是没有人可以夺走的。朋友，你说是不是？
你知道我在说你。
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6:04 AM
Death. What is it? Can there be different perspectives of it? To have experienced death before, what does it really feel like? Death -- it can be part of life. Or at least, I've experienced it before.
To feel to have died for two hours. JUST two hours you may say, but it felt like eternity. It seemed like nothing else mattered anymore, it's just yourself and the world crashing down on you. The feeling of having a priceless asset that you could ever have in your entire life and thereafter, losing every ounce of it. Or rather, trying to hold on to that single faith that the two people that mattered there and then would not lose faith in the other. Seems complicated? It's really heart-wrenching to know everything, and i mean EVERYTHING, but not knowing what to do at all. How crappy can that even start to feel?
And then that trigger comes and you're dead. No life, no shadow of a soul is within you, and there you are floating. Literally. Tears sear in your sockets but it just wouldn't come out. Your heart feels the pain but there's nothing you can do. Feel helpless? Totally. That is death, part of life. The death of hope being held on for so long. The death of faith lingered by a thread.
But there is something else that is born with it. Like a phoenix emerging from the flame. The birth of friendship. A friendship stronger than before, even, starting stronger than any other before. The love of sisters that started like there's no other. What is that sweetness? In my dialect, 苦中一点甜. Leave it, as a voice of wisdom would say and you would get clear water even when the water was muddy before as the sediments settles down.
In life, we learn from the lessons that take us further each day. In death, we learn from the pain that makes us stronger each day. It is the love revealing from within that makes everything worthwhile. For me, the love of a beloved friend and a dear sister.
Life is too short to wake up with regrets. Love the people who treat you right, forgive the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it'd be easy. They just promised that it would be worth it.
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5:44 AM
人生确实很无常。生命的脆弱，谁能够衡量？人生包含着许多点滴，在生命的过程中却被毫无意义的事情所蒙住。值得吗？人们常说：“爱，可以化解恨。因为爱是无私的。”话虽然这么说，但人往往都不会珍惜眼前所有对自己珍贵的事物。偏偏要等到失去，才懂得珍惜。未免太晚了吧？
要在短短的十几年里找到属于我们的知己实在是难上加难。若有一个特别的人能够让自己在十分钟内哭笑不得，是好事还是坏事呢？到了初级学院交上了无数的朋友，分出真假吗？或许有可能吧。但对我而言，有许多事是迷糊的。最清澈的还是那在身旁首着自己，知己明亮的心。
有着这种幸福，很简单。只要懂得去爱、打开心灵接受那朋友给予自己的爱，幸福不就找到了吗？
在初级学院找到的知己会是我一生中最难忘的。当然，我所拥有的一切会是我最珍惜的一切，拥有的会一直存在，除非自己狠心放弃。心灵的深处因害怕再次受到伤害，终于再次打开心肠，都感激着那些一直陪在身边的所有人。
生命太短了，人没有多余的时间去后悔昨天所犯的错。所以，我们应该去爱对我们好的人，原谅那些犯错的人。如果机会敲着们，就紧紧握着。如果它改变你的人生，就由它去改。没有人说人生很简单，只是答应这个路程会值得。
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7:33 AM
Life has been really up the hills this year.To find a new family that I never knew i had, to share the bonds that we never thought we would ever make, to appreciate each other that we never thought we would. This bond that I have found in this special place was amazing built in less than 3 months of a beginning of a new phase of everyone's life. The laughter shared, the tears shed. What can be more meaningful than a time that everyone can feel belonged to a family that lies within an even larger family?
This small family has many branches that linked to the outside of the bigger picture, with different families that we belong to outside of this one. The love and bonds shared between are precious and worth treasuring no matter what happens. A home away from home. Life never been this meaningful and fufilling for me til I found the people that made my life whole again. Emotional roller-coasters everywhere are expected in everyway. However, the values to uphold the bonds, to stick together as one, to strive as a whole,will never be lost.
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7:42 PM
人，是一种很奇怪的动物。除了身体之外，人还包含着自己的灵魂。一个人的快乐并不取决于他做的事，反而，一个人的快乐是由自己的选择而定。心灵里感受到的情绪并非是表面的感情。感情是可以形容，可以表达的。但情绪往往都很难形容，但却可发泄。人生有许多我们人类不明白的事，解释不了的事实。甚至，在某些时候，我们觉得自己很孤单，心情很乱，很复杂。连自己都不清楚自己要的是什么。前面的路总是看起来很艰难，很难走。看了那遥远又辛苦的路铺在眼前，实在觉得很累，真的不想再走下去了。在这时，我们都很想放弃，把自己的命给丢了，放弃自己，结束生命似乎是一种解脱。那则是最自私的选择。当然，也包括逃避。
爱，依然存在。身边的每一个人都没有想过要放弃我们，我们又怎能放弃自己呢？在生命的每个阶段里，总会有人陪着我们一起度过，我们也从来没有孤单过，只是我们太在意自己的烦恼与感受，使我们无法发现在我们身边爱护我们，关心我们的人。这些人可能是我们的家人，或是我们的朋友。他们也可能是我们刚认识的人，帮到我们，没有留下任何痕迹而离开。这些都是上帝赐给我们的守护天使，当上帝的两只手，在我们跌倒时，上前扶我们一把，让我们更有勇气地继续走我们各自的人生旅程。不管是属于哪个宗教的人，上天都是一视同仁，一样爱着我们，一直都留在我们身边，一步都没离开过。
凝聚着最多爱的地方就是家。家人总是会对我们不离不弃，在我们生命里最低落的时候站在我们身旁，以期面对困难。所以我深信，虽然我们生在世上是有着我们该完成的任务，但是排在第一位的是孝顺父母，疼爱兄妹。做个快乐的孩子并不难，只看自己愿不愿意去做。烦恼在我们成长的过程总会浮现，但做个好女儿或好儿子都是我们的本分。的确，有时我们真的在困境里很难开心起来，但只要是清楚知道家人的存在，爱的存在都会在自己的心灵里逗留着，那已经足够。把心门打开来，让在身边的人与上天给予我们的爱进来，生命就不会孤独，反而会温暖幸福。
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2:26 AM
Memories that stay within our soul.Memories that we ourselves may have forgotten somehow.Memories that resurface when we are deep in our sleep.Memories that make us feel belonged to where we are and rediscover ourselves.It is indeed difficult to forget some things that may have happened to us and on the other hand, it is also easy to forget those that we may or may not choose to forget.Faces of people that we have seen before sometimes feel so close to our hearts as our soul recognises the people but not our brain.Confusing, we may say.However, it is the broken pieces of memories that come together in our dreams that we ourselves know that it is not as simple as a dream but rather, a part of our own past.There's that special something that allows us to differenciate the normal dreams to that of fragments of our own memories.Memories are shy and have different characteristics.They sometimes hide deep inside us and never come back out.It is the believe in these momories that allows them to muster enough courage to resurface again.It is a choice that each and everyone of us can make, or not.More than a year have passed since my last post and many things have happened in my absense of my blog.Both major and minor changes have taken place in this past year which made me realise that there are actually some people whom I have met or seen for the first time but felt like I've known them forever.It's not about myself boasting about anything but sharing my experiences that I have found interesting and unable to decipher.Knowing the truth but unable to explain the logic behind it is not scientific in any possible way. However, understanding that the truth lies within ourselves from everyday happenings linking up to the memories that one had dreamt about. That particular dream that had felt so real with the emotions that actually touched our heart even when we awake. The hurt that we felt and emphatise with the person in our dream that our heart had identified as someone our soul knows but a pity not our brain.Heartfelt emotions that make us feel connected to the special one in our mind's eye through our heart.
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10:07 PM
There are times when i envy some of my friends a lot! They are just so loved by so many people naturally, without doing much. I guess, being loved is such a beautiful thing. However, do people really know what they really have and try all ways and means to keep it safe and never let go?I don't think so! Many people take things for granted but what is their blessing is that they have friends whom they don't know of, trying their best to make them feel happy and loved always. These people may have overlooked the "oblivious" friends around them as they are already so loved that they do not even realise that there was actually that another person who loves them.
Perhaps, the people who are loved may one day realise that one person that had been trying to reach out to them. Would it be too late then? No one knows for sure. Trying to make others trust you sure is difficult. But, to me, the most important thing is to perservere and never give up! I believe that it is indeed easier to give up rather than to hold on so tightly. However, if you would give up so early, ask yourself, why in the first place, you had wanted to grab hold of it? Friends are hard to find and it is indeed encouraging that when you are down, they are always there to pull you up.
Being that category of friends is what i aspire to be. Be it being the darlings of your friends or your friends are the dears of you deep inside. What's inside might not need to be make known and it shall be satisfying when you've found someone who can feel it without you trying so hard to make them understand.
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6:35 AM
