Death. What is it? Can there be different perspectives of it? To have experienced death before, what does it really feel like? Death -- it can be part of life. Or at least, I've experienced it before.
To feel to have died for two hours. JUST two hours you may say, but it felt like eternity. It seemed like nothing else mattered anymore, it's just yourself and the world crashing down on you. The feeling of having a priceless asset that you could ever have in your entire life and thereafter, losing every ounce of it. Or rather, trying to hold on to that single faith that the two people that mattered there and then would not lose faith in the other. Seems complicated? It's really heart-wrenching to know everything, and i mean EVERYTHING, but not knowing what to do at all. How crappy can that even start to feel?
And then that trigger comes and you're dead. No life, no shadow of a soul is within you, and there you are floating. Literally. Tears sear in your sockets but it just wouldn't come out. Your heart feels the pain but there's nothing you can do. Feel helpless? Totally. That is death, part of life. The death of hope being held on for so long. The death of faith lingered by a thread.
But there is something else that is born with it. Like a phoenix emerging from the flame. The birth of friendship. A friendship stronger than before, even, starting stronger than any other before. The love of sisters that started like there's no other. What is that sweetness? In my dialect, 苦中一点甜. Leave it, as a voice of wisdom would say and you would get clear water even when the water was muddy before as the sediments settles down.
In life, we learn from the lessons that take us further each day. In death, we learn from the pain that makes us stronger each day. It is the love revealing from within that makes everything worthwhile. For me, the love of a beloved friend and a dear sister.
Life is too short to wake up with regrets. Love the people who treat you right, forgive the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it'd be easy. They just promised that it would be worth it.
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5:44 AM
人生确实很无常。生命的脆弱，谁能够衡量？人生包含着许多点滴，在生命的过程中却被毫无意义的事情所蒙住。值得吗？人们常说：“爱，可以化解恨。因为爱是无私的。”话虽然这么说，但人往往都不会珍惜眼前所有对自己珍贵的事物。偏偏要等到失去，才懂得珍惜。未免太晚了吧？
要在短短的十几年里找到属于我们的知己实在是难上加难。若有一个特别的人能够让自己在十分钟内哭笑不得，是好事还是坏事呢？到了初级学院交上了无数的朋友，分出真假吗？或许有可能吧。但对我而言，有许多事是迷糊的。最清澈的还是那在身旁首着自己，知己明亮的心。
有着这种幸福，很简单。只要懂得去爱、打开心灵接受那朋友给予自己的爱，幸福不就找到了吗？
在初级学院找到的知己会是我一生中最难忘的。当然，我所拥有的一切会是我最珍惜的一切，拥有的会一直存在，除非自己狠心放弃。心灵的深处因害怕再次受到伤害，终于再次打开心肠，都感激着那些一直陪在身边的所有人。
生命太短了，人没有多余的时间去后悔昨天所犯的错。所以，我们应该去爱对我们好的人，原谅那些犯错的人。如果机会敲着们，就紧紧握着。如果它改变你的人生，就由它去改。没有人说人生很简单，只是答应这个路程会值得。
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7:33 AM
